Dear Nathaniel, I've been thinking about you, and I want you to know what I think. In the first place, you and your family should consider your present employment as a period of internship or residency, which is much more valuable than the standard "canned" training offered by hospitals, law firms or commercial establishments, because unlike that other training, it does not crush or cripple you - and I speak from experience - but gives you the opportunity to learn about the world and most important, about yourself. To become yourself. I think what you are doing now will make you wiser, more intelligent, more sensitive, and will enhance your ability to survive in a mindless and cruel world, and you will be far ahead your "peers" who have succumbed to conventionality and permitted themselves to be stunted and crippled by society. Explain to Professor Zander, if you judge him to be open-minded and imaginative enough, that to learn about social and political tyranny one needn't listen to Karl Popper's sermons. All that's required is to attend an orchestra rehearsal and observe the conductor as the quintessential "leader", who forces his spiritual slaves to subject themselves to, and to conform to his intuitions and to assimilate themselves to the conductor's musical experience. (Erleben) As always, I'm on your side! Love, Jochen