Dear Dr. Meyer:

The bureaucrats may not quench our first amendment rights, but mayhaps Google shall. Have you ever considered Protonmail? I find it quite copacetic, but I have never gotten on to it, because nobody else uses it. It seems to me prudent to use it, as we depart for more esoteric realms.

I slept well last night, though in chunks, and I awake with no perceived need to take medication. Even if I don't szleep tonight, I will be fine. I of course defer to your professional but by no means professional-professional, judgement.

Were you aware that the Christmas star recurred on 21 December? I was too busy to go out and see it, alas:

Turning and turning in the widening gyre  
The falcon cannot hear the falconer;
Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;
Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,
The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere  
The ceremony of innocence is drowned;
The best lack all conviction, while the worst  
Are full of passionate intensity.

Surely some revelation is at hand;
Surely the Second Coming is at hand.  
The Second Coming! Hardly are those words out  
When a vast image out of Spiritus Mundi
Troubles my sight: somewhere in sands of the desert  
A shape with lion body and the head of a man,  
A gaze blank and pitiless as the sun,  
Is moving its slow thighs, while all about it  
Reel shadows of the indignant desert birds.  
The darkness drops again; but now I know  
That twenty centuries of stony sleep
Were vexed to nightmare by a rocking cradle,  
And what rough beast, its hour come round at last,  
Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born?

I myself and not at all worried. Nü-wa seems to be busy. 

On Tue, Dec 22, 2020 at 9:52 PM Ernst Meyer <ernstmeyer@earthlink.net> wrote:

    Dear Nikola,

     From your letter I infer that you are feeling (much) better. I hope
    that I am correct.

    Please don't be disappointed, try to understand, and don't be angry
    when, however much I want to help you,  I describe the prohibition that
    prevents me from issuing the prescriptions which are required to obtain
    the medications which you need.

    In the course of the 67 years that I have been practicing medicine, I
    have become more and more convinced that the practice of medicine is a
    societal function, that what I am permitted to do and prohibited from
    doing as a licensed physician is determined by the opinions of the
    members of the society in which we find ourselves enmeshed. If my
    intuition is correct, no member of my own family, no member of your
    family, no medical colleague of mine, no public official, no member of
    the Board of Registration in Medicine, no member of the Office of the
    Attorney General, no judge of the Superior Court, of the Court of
    Appeals or of the Supreme Judicial Court of Massachusetts would approve
    of my writing a single prescription for you, even if it were
    demonstrable beyond a reasonable doubt that that prescription, which is
    impossible, had "cured" you of your illness; while none of the
    aforementioned critics would blame a practicing "board certified"
    psychiatrist for a prescription which inadvertently, - or not so
    inadvertently -, did you incalculable harm.`The society in which we live
    is not rational, but to survive, we must adapt ourselves to its
    irrationality.

    What I ask of you is that long before you run out of medication which
    you might need, you make an appointment either with a psychiatrist whom
    you know, including Drs. Delisi, Weather, Rediger or even Dr. Rako.  You
    should consider the psychology of the psychiatrist whose ego has been
    bruised by the lapse of a relationship.  There is a substantial
    probability that he or she will be relieved to have you back.

    Alternatively you can go shopping for a psychiatrist on the Internet by
    googling "Psychiatrist in greater Boston MA".  which will give you,
    among other URL's https://thriveboston.com/boston-psychiatry.html which
    issues the invitation: "If you're looking for more information about
    psychiatry in Boston, or are ready to schedule a session with a licensed
    psychiatrist in Cambridge, MA, simply call us at 617-395-5806."

    So long as I am physically and mentally able, I will always be available
    without limitation, to listen to whatever you wish to tell me, to read
    whatever you wish to write to me, and to try to show you my perspectives
    on the issues that concern you. That is a First Amendment right which
    the bureaucrats cannot quench.

    EJM
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