I want to thank you again for not being angry with me in consequence of our recent e-mail exchange. I acknowledge that with respect to the Town of Nantucket in particular and in respect to the Massachusetts judicial apparatus in general, I am afflicted with the Michael Kohlhaas Syndrome, and I am apologetic and very much sympathetic with you for being discomfited by it and by me.  I also acknowledge that your obvious readiness to comply with the administrative directives of the Town may mitigate the hostility of its officers, while my anticipation of their malice may be self-fulfilling. I remember vividly my parents' distress in my failing to share their "trust and confidence" with respect to the Board of American Missions, and their anger with me for my (ultimately successful) attempts to protect them from having their house sold from under them.

If you care to take the trouble to read, und nachzuerleben, http://ernstjmeyer.ddns.net/div01/d210831_00_show_trial_brief.odt you may begin to understand why I cannot trust the Massachusetts courts and why I am afraid for you of the pain and humilation which the Town may inflict on you.  What is important for me, and I hope also for you, is not the money, not even the house, but what in German I would call "das geistig-seelische Erleben", something for which I can find no word in the English language.  It was my satisfaction with my "spiritual" experience which led me to reply to the Appeals Court when I knew what they were about to do to me and asked me "Do you have anything else to say?" by telling them that I thanked them for the opportunity to litigate and hoped that they would let me return. If worst comes to worst, I will never say "I told you so," and if you permit me I will always be by your side to the extent that I am mentally and physically able; and helping you then will be for me the ultimately meaningful experience since Mommy's death.